Taste of your lips I'm on a ride

It's hard to see the way Harvey always looks at Jackie as if she is the most beautiful girl in the world. Those SWEET BLUE PUPPY DOG EYES should be staring into mine and not her DEVIL DIRTY BLUE EYES my eyes are so much prettier than hers well that's what my friends and family says at least. But Harvey will never look at me the way he's looking at Jackie; does he even know I exist? He would just walk passed me in the hallway without a single glance, and at times I would take a LONG AND TIRING way to class just to see him but hey it's worth it. But you know what else would be worth blood and sweat? His blue eyes locked into mine never looking anywhere else and our hands intertwined. Sometimes my fantasies are just other silly little things that I prefer than reality or I should just stop listening to Taylor Swift songs in my I-pod and singing to myself while I stare at Harvey, which as my mother would put it... Rude. I turned it off because the next song was "White Horse" and I do not want to cry my eyes out while eating lunch and for once I actually liked my lunch today since I packed lunch today.
As hard as I am trying to enjoy my gigantic turkey sandwich, that I might not even finish anyway, Jackie's crying is making it hard for me to concentrate to enjoy...doesn't she know she's not the only girl in the world that needs to eat? Wait! JACKIE SANTANA IS CRYING! I turned around and she looked all nasty with snot and tears on her face, I never seen her like that as in ever neither did anyone else in the cafeteria because they were all staring at her with either enjoyment or even empathy. Me? I don't know what to feel but seeing JACKIE CRY was indeed something I'm too nice to say entertaining and I hate her enough not to say I feel sorry for her. Who would feel sorry for her? Maybe her three little bitches the 3D's who were comforting her as Harvey walked away with his hands in his pocket and his usually cute face with a smile with a guilty frown. Did they break up? DID JACKIE AND HARVEY BREAK UP?! This all have to be some kind of promising dream because they have been together since the 5th grade and now THEY BROKE UP!
Lolah noticed they were fighting almost the whole homeroom because she shares a homeroom with both of them, so it wasn't much a surprise for her at all but Brooke whose eyes were big with hope that Dawn would also break up, for real, with Kurt Gonzales. While Heath didn't even care and quote said "NOT AS IF BRANGELINA BROKE UP" why would people care? I'll tell him why and I did, people care because it's been long since HARVEY HAWKINS IS SINGLE! Fresh off the market or not, I rather be the rebound girl than be nothing at all even though that sounds pathetic, but this has to be a sign. I'll just go back to my I-pod and let Taylor Swift be my soundtrack... "Sparks Fly"... I love that song...ok that has to be a sign! And I could finally enjoy my sandwich enough to finish it. My crush is free...Jackie is miserable, yes I know I'm being mean but she kind of deserves if since she has made everyone's lives, especially mine, a living hell.
 
Single and ready to mingle with Harvey,
UNKNOWN LOSER!

I get it that the POPULARS get everything they want while those who are at the bottom settle for less. They rule as if they are the new set of dictators of this generation. Okay yeah they are all popular and people loves them wait hey… they don’t LOVE the populars they FEAR AND HATE THEM! They are just a bunch of who*re*s, hags and as*shole jerks who named themselves kings and queen of this school. So they are also the FASHIONISTAS of this school too? Do we really care if they come prancing around here with their Louise Vuitton handbag and Valentino shoes?
 
One word: YES!
 
I am just so sick and tired of the Popular people getting what they want. I mean it's just unfair! They bully and push everyone around and they are still at the top, why can't the populars just be NICE?! Is it a needed thing to be so nasty to become popular? Sure there are some who are nice but I can't name a single one. Sure HARVEY is nice but I don't know him that well since I never really talk to him I just gawk at the sight of him then run as if I wasn't staring at him like a complete fool.
 
I especially hate it when there are cheer-leading try outs where the POPULARS ARE EVEN MEANER! Luckily Jackie isn't head- cheerleader anymore she tortured everyone including the SENIORS how can that little skinny ass bi*tch get the people WHO ARE SUPPOSE TO BE IN CHARGE of the school bow down before her? Was it her flirty evil little smile or her evil blue snake eyes that burns right through your soul? I know that I am exaggerating things but it is so true she doesn't have to say a single word just to get her way she just stares at them then DONE! Her wishes are granted, now she's the student body president and it sucks.
 
Yes, I tried out for cheer leading last year and didn't made it I was almost the RACCOON the schools mascot sure I want to be a cheerleader but with dignity and not desperation. Not that I call my best friend BROOKE desperate in all but the moment HEATH stepped out of that raccoon and there were try outs for cheer leading again BROOKE tried out but made it to raccoon. Both being stuck as the unknown losers we both have to face hard choices in life be unknown or be THE RACCOON I prefer unknown, no way am I sticking my head into that stinky RACCOON HEAD. Now there are try-outs, since Jackie is no longer head-cheer leader she gave the position to DAWN who is almost as mean as JACKIE. She maybe a blond but she is no air-head, since inside that head is pure evil! Quoting Brooke since she says that a lot and that Dawn has Kurt in her evil clutches. They are off and on again it's hard to tell if they FINALLY BROKE UP!
 
Like I said POPULARS are not only FASHIONISTAS but HITLER-LIKE DICTATORS! They are just so mean! When you finally stood up for yourself you’re pushed down rather than pulled up, so standing up to fight isn't the best plan especially when everyone would just fear and hide so they won't be eaten and spitted out.
 
Like I was saying cheer leading when you’re in you’re in when you're out then out if you're the RACCOON prepare for the worst.
The RACCOON was always teased and bullied. Some say when no one is wearing the costume or they forgot it somewhere people could easily find they bring it to a party and when someone is like so freaking drunk they throw up in it then bring it back. So that's why it smells, I feel sorry for Brooke for being in that head, I hope they find someone else to be in that place, Brooke can't take another year of torture.
 
Sincerely with love,
UNKNOWN LOSER!

Patricia tries to compose herself before confront Francisco, she turns around and sees him about to walk away. She walks towards him.
 
PATRICIA:
Francisco!
 
Francisco turns around to see Patricia walking hastily towards him. He stops.
 
Patricia:
Why?
 
Francisco looks confused with the question, unsure what it meant.
 
FRANCISCO:
Why what?
 
PATRICIA:
Why don't you see me?
 
FRANCISCO:
Patricia I see you, I notice you if this is about me. I'll remind you again that I'm-
 
Patricia cuts him off frustrated trying to hide the heart break in her expression and choking down the tears. She already dealt with his whole speech about that she's in love with the image she gave him and not with him. Also that she's too young for him.
 
PATRICIA:
So that's all you see me as... All you see is this little fangirl drooling all over you. So let me rephrase my question... why don't you hear me? Because I'm pretty damn sure I have a voice. A good one too. You just can't hear it.
 
FRANCISCO:
I hear it and it's -
 
PATRICIA
Then why didn't you offer me that studio deal? Is it because I threw myself at you? Well I regret it, but I can sing.
 
FRANCISCO:
Patricia please calm down, do you really want to ruin this night? You guys won, you should celebrate.
 
PATRICIA:
How can I? I'm still in pain, you broke my heart twice. I was hoping you'd see through all that fangirl madness you'd see someone with talent. But I guess you only have eyes for one girl, unfortunately it would never be me.

first: BAMBOO MANALAC he is a local singer, but he is considered as a rock prince in my country. He is my idol and I love him (I admire him not in any romantic manner whatsoever)
 
second: VERA WANG I want to meet the woman who can design such lovely and fairytale like wedding gowns also high end fashion. I love her, I always dreamed to intern for her or work for her if not work with her.
 
3rd: ELLEN DEGENERES she is so funny, inspirational and all out good person who is entertaining. I need to meet her, have her talk to me and have just one conversation would make me the happiest person alive!
 
4th: TAYLOR SWIFT the girl who taught me that when you write you have to put yourself and your feelings into words you put on paper to make it good. She writes her song out of personal feelings and put in word play. She is amazing.
 
There are a lot of people I want to meet before I die but they are my top four :)
 
Though the person I really wanted to me is now... in heaven. Sir Michael Jackson may you rest in peace!

okay yes the best friend and guy best friend are the same. Because I find it to be the same :)
 
Also yes I want an owl as a pet, I always wanted one since I saw the first Harry Potter Movie when I was 6. I want an owl.